Guess who is making me dinner? @mrdexparker
Guess who is making me dinner? @mrdexparker
2022-04-19 02:46:29 +0000 UTC View Post
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“Blank staring” has been our term for the mental vortex that..
“Blank staring” has been our term for the mental vortex that opens up when we start daydreaming about our sex since the beginning. Lost in anything but thought - something we both struggle to do. Since then we’ve each individually and collectively come to know other forms of meditation. But at that time when we were spinning in our own ways, one of the only things that would ground me was you… and your dick.
2022-04-08 12:55:35 +0000 UTC View PostMexican Movement My practice has still been slow - but it's..
Mexican Movement My practice has still been slow - but it's been getting stronger. Integrating the lessons (and the tacos) I've been exposing myself to while I've been here. My timeline has expanded far beyond what I expected. Patience is what I'm learning. How can slow feel good.
2022-04-07 18:13:24 +0000 UTC View PostI always m33t important people at trying times. I used to s..
I always m33t important people at trying times. I used to see it as an inconvenience. Now I know they’re just the players for my next level. I’m typically an “on the first date” person. I like to know if the energy is there before we go forward - and I’m impatient. Except with this human I knew that if I opened physically before I finished processing my real-world clusterfck that it would be too much. So we spent many weeks walking and talking until the sun came up. Meanwhile my mushroom trips were feeling like emotional exorcisms and the layers were simultaneously melting and building. So the idea of s3x seemed, for maybe the first time in my y0ung-adult life…irresponsible. **gasp** maturity? Plus…I love playing with denial. It’s my favourite live behavioural science experiment. “If I do this, but not this…what happens?” You learn a lot if you know how to watch. Riding someone else’s high requires permission. Verbal, psychological, energetic and sometimes physical. There’s only so many edges you can find before your own start to be tested. And once I actually said “yes” and the first move was - pillow under the butt / spit on the c|it - body went “okay we’re good 🥵😍”
2022-04-07 15:23:44 +0000 UTC View PostTrying to even out the tan Which view do you prefer?
Trying to even out the tan Which view do you prefer?
2022-04-07 01:08:22 +0000 UTC View PostI had two looks: fuckable and sad. Masking vs. Reality. Th..
I had two looks: fuckable and sad. Masking vs. Reality. The more I got in front of the camera, the more I embodied a woman I certainly don’t live as. But I also got to see my subconscious come out in the physical. Hats off to those who can embody things they are asked to represent versus images they manifest from feeling - acting is hard. So is being seen. They are similar but not the same.
2022-04-06 01:20:25 +0000 UTC View Post
y0ung and scared shtless thoughts: “This shirt is so see-th..
y0ung and scared shtless thoughts: “This shirt is so see-through, just block it.” “What do I do with my face?” “Are my eyebrows melting?” “What if my human sees these?” “I’m physically being cornered by a stranger and I have no shoes or pants…” “Why do I like this?”
2022-04-03 15:23:06 +0000 UTC View PostHave you ever meditated like a plant? Stood out in the weat..
Have you ever meditated like a plant? Stood out in the weather and just allowed it to take you?
2022-04-02 17:11:04 +0000 UTC View PostThis is from my “y0ung and scared shtless” phase. Not telli..
This is from my “y0ung and scared shtless” phase. Not telling anyone what I was doing or where I was going. Not really knowing why myself. Asking myself “do I know how to not get murd3r3d?” But something always drew me to explore myself in this way. To see more of myself than what I could in a mirror. Having outward reflections of myself started to allow me to see how many perceptions of people there really are. And if I don’t like myself in one moment or through the eyes of one, there are so many other opportunities to be seen in a different light. This was the first time I let my nipp|es be visible and the entire time my brain was on fire with anxiety. And then I remembered the wisdom of the boy who tried to get me to flash him on webcam when we were y0ung; “Boobs are no different than elbows” Wise beyond his years. And points for creativity. Didn’t do it though. But now maybe I wish I had.
2022-04-02 14:44:11 +0000 UTC View PostNo computer for another week 🙃😅 The longest in my professio..
No computer for another week 🙃😅 The longest in my professional life. Trying to find sanity and calm by taking it as a sign to go slow and stay in the physical. So this week will be a lot of walking, naked sun and movement. Because I need to give the coping tacos a rest…
2022-03-30 20:24:13 +0000 UTC View PostI have a question - period smell
I have a question - period smell
2022-03-25 13:44:45 +0000 UTC View PostI never found oral to be inherently demeaning. Sure…I’m on ..
I never found oral to be inherently demeaning. Sure…I’m on my knees. But I have your future between my teeth 🤷🏻♀️ It’s one of my favourite opportunities to play with power and have real-time tactile feedback. Plus it momentarily stops me from snacking.
2022-03-25 13:12:34 +0000 UTC View PostWhat kind of player are you? We exist within many dynamics ..
What kind of player are you? We exist within many dynamics with the entities of our lives: Places Projects People And everything is always shifting. Once I understand the nature of the game being played, I always ask myself if I’m the right player? Are we playing chess? Checkers? Because personally I’m a scattergories fan. Fcking love me some alliterative categories 🤤 As much as I love playing with power and creation, I know I’m the happiest when there’s no game being played beyond the one we’re all born into. Outside of consensual containers of cognitive chaos, I’d much prefer to be standing together in a field listing everything that starts with the letter “S”, but that’s just me and my brain…
2022-03-24 14:12:32 +0000 UTC View PostTomorrow is a concept. Not a place or time. It’s an idea o..
Tomorrow is a concept. Not a place or time. It’s an idea of “any time but here and now.” As soon as we get there, tomorrow becomes today. And today becomes yesterday.
2022-03-23 12:12:04 +0000 UTC View PostI know I’m grounded when - I’m reading frequently - Moving d..
I know I’m grounded when - I’m reading frequently - Moving daily - Cooking - Having consistent sex - Not thinking about money - Happy being naked What are your signs?
2022-03-22 18:05:29 +0000 UTC View PostIt’s also a great bicep stretch.
It’s also a great bicep stretch.
2022-03-21 16:08:25 +0000 UTC View PostPull the butt-meat out before you sit down. That is all.
Pull the butt-meat out before you sit down. That is all.
2022-03-20 17:23:44 +0000 UTC View PostLaughing during sex (and general life) feels amazing and is ..
Laughing during sex (and general life) feels amazing and is a great way to wake up the happy chemicals. And if you’re like me - it can also be a stim. For some it’s so automatic it’s uncontrollable. For others this is a foreign concept. I’ve learned if I’m not laughing - I’m bored. I don’t decide that - body does. Do you laugh during sex?
2022-03-19 19:30:44 +0000 UTC View Post
I’ve always loved marks. Seeing how skin can be painted wit..
I’ve always loved marks. Seeing how skin can be painted with energy and the variations of strokes fascinates me from both sides of the experience. What can be done with a hand vs a paddle full of spikes is distinctly different and yet also not at all. Each forces you into the moment it happens - but also keeps you there for many afterwards. The sting of sitting for days after. Hydrating and massaging to stimulate healing. The slowly disappearing reminder of who gave this energy. For me marks have always reminded me You are here You are more than a body You are involved in what happens to you How you react How you recover And your softness is your strength
2022-03-15 18:03:50 +0000 UTC View PostMy favourite part of the property is what I call the haunted..
My favourite part of the property is what I call the haunted section. The growth and colours are entirely different than everywhere else - with gnarled branches clawing over each other searching for sun. So when we decided to commemorate this location, there was no question of where we'd do it. I don't know that I've ever heard an orgasm echo before...
2022-03-15 05:00:06 +0000 UTC View Post
Naked in nature is always better when it’s with Max. Which ..
Naked in nature is always better when it’s with Max. Which it usually is. Grateful for my equally pale partner for always being willing to risk (and often acquiring) scandalous sunburns for the sake of returning to our roots. More soon please.
2022-03-11 21:43:59 +0000 UTC View Post
Forts are sanity staples during these uncertain times. When..
Forts are sanity staples during these uncertain times. When you can’t go out - you go in. And when you’ve run out of places to go in your mind, I highly recommend making a new place in your home. Nudity is optional. Snacks are essential. And don’t mind the dildo.
2022-03-11 02:13:15 +0000 UTC View PostMy happy place: Naked in the sun with a full mouth and good ..
My happy place: Naked in the sun with a full mouth and good company Max and I made the most of our roof access while we had it. Photo shoots Movie nights Psychedelic come downs And lots of fuckery Missing a bit of all of it right now
2022-03-06 19:07:08 +0000 UTC View PostWhen none of it makes sense - go back to the few universal t..
When none of it makes sense - go back to the few universal truths: - Time is perceived as fast, but is moving slowly. - Nature is strong. - Everything ends. - Squeezing animals is medicinal.
2022-02-27 15:57:55 +0000 UTC View Post