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This was that shoot... Show of hands...who wants the Do Mor..

This was that shoot... Show of hands...who wants the Do More Chronicles?

2023-03-01 05:01:21 +0000 UTC View Post

But he did take a mean butt photo...

2023-02-28 05:01:18 +0000 UTC View Post

I learned so much about boundaries from that tire fire... S..

I learned so much about boundaries from that tire fire... Specifically that mine sucked

2023-02-27 05:01:24 +0000 UTC View Post

Every inside has an outside. What goes on inside your skin ..

Every inside has an outside. What goes on inside your skin is inseparable from what goes on outside your skin. A human being is not an organism in an environment, but an organism/environment. A unified field of behaviour. If you describe the behaviour of any organism, you cannot do so without describing the behaviour of the environment. The organism is not the puppet of the environment. Nor is the reverse. The relationship is transactional. There is no buying unless there is someone selling. And no one selling unless someone is buying. - Alan Watts

2023-02-26 17:50:36 +0000 UTC View Post

But this was a time when my sexuality was entirely performed..

But this was a time when my sexuality was entirely performed and just a secret even to myself. I had some instinctual sense of what I wanted, but no concept of how to go about getting it. Especially from where I was and who I was with. Because I was unw|lling to admit I couldn't get it if I stayed with him. Which is why an external energy with a desire to have any sense of control over me really made me curious. Even if it was because he had no control over himself.

2023-02-26 05:01:27 +0000 UTC View Post

He definitely wanted to fuck me. He told me. And the fact th..

He definitely wanted to fuck me. He told me. And the fact that I never would is probably the only reason he kept respecting me. I thought about it. I almost-almost did it. Conversations happened, but situations didn't. And the universe/uterus had my back on that one.

2023-02-25 05:01:35 +0000 UTC View Post

He treated me like shit, but like an intellectual. We talked..

He treated me like shit, but like an intellectual. We talked about books as he asked me to pop my ass. And he asked me about the marks he could see. The conversation certainly had me engaged. At the time I mistook his tone for assertiveness. He was the first person that opened up to me about mental health. And the first person I had to be radically honest about their complete lack of desire to actually get better.

2023-02-24 05:01:16 +0000 UTC View Post

I'm definitely technically old enough to know better here - ..

I'm definitely technically old enough to know better here - but emotionally I have way more maturing to do at this time than I realize. And I know that because I drove 3hrs to m33t a stranger at his house to take these images entirely behind my partner's back. And it wasn't my first time...

2023-02-23 05:01:36 +0000 UTC View Post

Chances are more than a few of you know who I'm referring to..

Chances are more than a few of you know who I'm referring to. This was from our first shoot. And my first shooting like this. When I showed up, the first thing he said was my hair looked like I had been in the rain and if he decides he wants to shoot with me again, I should straighten it. We shot again. I straightened it.

2023-02-22 05:01:43 +0000 UTC View Post

Strong spines mean more than perfect posture. If the head i..

Strong spines mean more than perfect posture. If the head isn’t physically on straight, imagine how sideways the inside feels?

2023-02-21 17:44:30 +0000 UTC View Post

Instead of striving for perfect purity, I think those who ca..

Instead of striving for perfect purity, I think those who capture images should strive for a clear intention. Both of your composition AND your reason for creating it. 99% of male photographers I've met and taught have been in the room so they can be in the room with a naked female. Frequently one that knows how to speak her boundaries. Equally frequently (and far scarier) with those who don't... During my time teaching photography, I learned that there is a massive community of men with cameras simply because they are socially awkward and use it as a way to connect with individuals and circumstances they otherwise wouldn't have natural invites to. I learned this when my long-term and very accomplished photography mentor was completely me-too'ed. And he deserved to be. And at the time he taught me most of what I knew about shooting nudes. Which made me realize he taught me a lot about how to make people do what I want without truly considering why they want to be in a room with me. Many people come to photo sessions, especially of nude natures, for reasons entirely outside the images. My mentor essentially told me to get the best product was to remain in control, dictate the session and to gently but authoritatively guide them in my desired direction. He taught me how to ba|t women... And used it on me too...

2023-02-21 05:01:35 +0000 UTC View Post

I'm a believer that images of bodies should reflect more rea..

I'm a believer that images of bodies should reflect more reality than fantasy. But I also believe the purity of that is impossible. From posing to perspective to lens choice to lighting to editing to wardrobe to all of the elements of an image, there is no omnipotent view available. Therefore there is always a projection. A perception. A fantasy.

2023-02-20 05:01:42 +0000 UTC View Post

A photo is not a representation of reality. Even if the poi..

A photo is not a representation of reality. Even if the point is to document what is happening, it's only through the myopic lens of the perceiver. An image is a well-constructed lie captured in a fraction of a second. It's a fantasy. It can be fun and expansive and lucrative to create these. But it's important in this new singularity that we remember that even though we feel merged, we are certainly entirely separate from these fragments.

2023-02-19 05:01:32 +0000 UTC View Post

I've also 1000% truly stopped caring about being perceived i..

I've also 1000% truly stopped caring about being perceived in a particular way by a particular person. The concept of clout as currency makes my skin hurt. And I am certainly a benefactor of it. But to chase it constantly as the primary metric is just not a way I can live my life. But I was subconsciously. I was more worried about how I was seen than how I would show up. What the photo looked like rather than the reality. That couldn't be farther from the truth now.

2023-02-18 05:01:50 +0000 UTC View Post

The thing that feels different is my instinct. I feel recon..

The thing that feels different is my instinct. I feel reconnected to it. To what is actually a yes and no for my truth and dreams to continue to create this big, weird reality of mine. And it's because for so many years I denied the signals she was sending me. I told myself she had led me astray before and I needed to retrain my senses before leaning into those signals. I told myself I was not trustworthy. So I gave my power to others. I opened to the idea that I have been wrong and that I should push past boundaries and try new. And I did. But there's still a line. Always a line. When the hair stands up and tells you "that's enough". And when you don't listen...it escalates from the hair on the back of your neck to the knot in your stomach to the tension in your neck to the pain in your back to the anxiety in your mind of "what's wrong with me?"

2023-02-17 05:01:57 +0000 UTC View Post

In many ways, I genuinely feel different. How to put a lived..

In many ways, I genuinely feel different. How to put a lived experience of that into words feels like describing a dream, but I look at it like a shaking hand that slowly finds its way to steady. It may look and feel the same, but how it performs and the quality with which can be entirely new. And while I haven't 180-ed my entire personality, I can honestly say that the impending doom I felt for the majority of my previous 30 years has radically lifted. It still whispers, but those whispers don't send me into spirals. I haven't had one in quite some time... Was it the ayahuasca? Was it the ibogaine? Was it therapy? Was it Mexico? Was it the pandemic? Was it the jobs I lost? Was it the friend that died? Was it the first fringe break up? Or the second? Or was it the first primary breakup? Or the second? It's all. And none. Everything is a result of all the experiences we have. Our tapestry ever evolving. Even as it gets longer, we can only go forward stitch by stitch.

2023-02-16 05:02:10 +0000 UTC View Post

I've always hated change. And yet I really thrive on it. In..

I've always hated change. And yet I really thrive on it. In the eye of the storm, it's not an ego statement to say that I'm a really good thunder buddy. As long as that storm doesn't involve riding a bike...then we're fucked. My brain does best with systems and organization, but my life force really doesn't like doing the same thing more than once unless I really like it. And then I'll do it until I physically can't. So I've satisfied this duality by making my professional life dedicated to creating and studying systems and my personal life a chaotic, creative clusterfuck. At one point with different company I was pretty happy with this balance. But as I edged closer to 30 and my hormones started to scream their desires, this started to feel less fulfilling. Damn...finally she grew up.

2023-02-15 05:05:45 +0000 UTC View Post

The calendar says today is important. Every day should be i..

The calendar says today is important. Every day should be important.

2023-02-14 16:29:46 +0000 UTC View Post

Today is just a day that card companies make more money. Eve..

Today is just a day that card companies make more money. Every day up until this day I've been making the conscious choice to love myself truly and above all, more than anyone else in my life. Being selfish with my energy has been the most productive thing I've ever done with it. Spending less to get more means I had to close off places where leaks couldn't be repaired. And in most cases severing that tie really hurt. If you have to cut something off, it's less painful to do it in one piece rather than in chunks. I wasn't afforded that luxury, but maybe you will be. In either case, it ultimately means I have fewer humans in my inner circle at the present moment - which can certainly get lonely. But what I've been able to regain in their absence is myself. My actual self. What I'm like when I'm not worried about those who I consider extensions of me. When I'm not so deeply entrenched in their realities I can't tell them from me. And this concept of self love that once felt as foreign as Japanese has actually been a lived experience in my body on frequent occasions on this journey. Even in the depths of the loneliness and heartbreak and uncertainty, as my energy has genuinely improved, I've felt the form of love I once held onto so deeply be exchanged for one I was certain I'd never have. And that price can't be accidental. I couldn't feel this way if I still felt the way I did when attached to something else. I really don't know if one can be loved the way they want to if they can't at least define that for themselves.

2023-02-14 05:02:10 +0000 UTC View Post

I've been the breadwinner AND the dick user more than once. ..

I've been the breadwinner AND the dick user more than once. A part of me loved stepping into this space because of the challenge and because I'm a creature of change. I also love picking up the cheque. A power move and a kind gesture rolled into one is always my favourite/codependence. "You get it next time"...if I want you to. But a part of me that may not be larger in size, but certainly in influence, always held resentment for being f0rced into this role longterm rather than choosing it moment to moment. Frog in boiling water...

2023-02-13 05:02:10 +0000 UTC View Post

To feel soft and feminine is to feel safe and free. It's mor..

To feel soft and feminine is to feel safe and free. It's more than a feeling - it's a state. In our reality, those states often involve things like food, shelter, finances and human interaction. Without them, we go into survival. When taking on more than our flesh bag can handle, we go into crisis. In my own crisis, I can handle my own survival mode. When asked to take on someone else's and only given access to the gas pedal without the wheel, it's like being on a never ending car chase. You have absolutely no idea where you're going, but you can sort of avoid the sharp turns.

2023-02-12 05:02:24 +0000 UTC View Post

30 days of beach and yoga have been kind The bugs have not…

2023-02-11 15:10:20 +0000 UTC View Post

I've primarily explored domming in my intimate relationships..

I've primarily explored domming in my intimate relationships - which meant feeling the weight of the inherent codependency got very blurred with the traditional needs of any relationship. It didn't really strike me as odd that writing up a contract for my partners on how often they could access their own genitals due to self control struggles would be an odd duty to take on. I found a way to make it fun and so if I was on board, what was wrong? What was wrong was the symptom was being address, but not the root cause of the issue. It wasn't just for fun and games, there was a necessity component. A genuine desire for behaviour modification. The at home scientist in me was thrilled at this experiment. The woman in me was left for neglect.

2023-02-11 05:02:23 +0000 UTC View Post

Almost all of the subs (except for one in particular) I've e..

Almost all of the subs (except for one in particular) I've ever played with have had notoriously bad communication. In my early ignorance, I wondered if this was a personality trait of the type of human that liked this sort of play. I've certainly struggled with my own verbal communication in the past and am no stranger to the fun of being fucked up, so I erred on the side of empathy. Until I met people who broke this rule. And felt the difference. In the flow of our play. The depth of our connection. And the intenseness of our fuckery. I wonder if it's rare or I'm bad at calling it in. Part of me thinks I called in the subs that wanted to show me the shadows of my dominance. That while I have no desire to take words from those who give me my power, I often got my power from giving words to those who could not find them. Making choices for others. Even if I was asked to. I'd seen Doms do it constantly, so it felt like a natural part of the role. Until I remembered I usually hate doing things by the rules. And so I wondered. Even if it's done, is it right? And beyond if it's "right", is it helpful for the recipient?

2023-02-10 05:03:12 +0000 UTC View Post

I was always called to kink before any of the rest. I love ..

I was always called to kink before any of the rest. I love the way the brain works and being able to play with someone's subconscious in the physical really turns my gears. But you have to have connection and communication to do so. Casual doesn't usually lead to fast fun - at least for me. But this took me a long time and many no's to truly learn this about myself. So even of all the things I experienced and places I went, I felt overall unsatisfied. Because I wasn't getting what I wanted. I wasn't getting that deeper connection that only comes from a place of radical honesty. I was connecting with energies who wanted to leave their body and to have me facilitate this. They wanted to relinquish control, without giving me any sort of energy of their own. It felt so hollow. I wondered if it always would in D/s. Until I started making the connections and correlations to the other places those rules apply. Where else is connection and communication essential for success? - business - art - relationships - pets - ch|ldren The few places our universal truths tend to live...

2023-02-09 05:02:35 +0000 UTC View Post

And don't get me wrong, I'm still a complete freak. However..

And don't get me wrong, I'm still a complete freak. However I've radically reconsidered where I want to be that human. In the early days of my fuckery it seemed safer to test the waters online because if there was any sort of crash and burn scenario it was really easy to hit the eject button. That quickly became unsatisfying and I graduated into singular dynamics with more experienced humans. That energy was enough for me to take on, but knowing they had other people in the wings often lead to a lot of unwanted emotions and scenarios. So I hit the social scene. And was immediately unimpressed. Maybe it was because of my location or the humans in it, but I found myself needing to consume to be in places and the last thing I want is to be suspect choices on substances. That's not to say I didn't, but I very quickly knew I didn't want that to be my rule. This story goes on a lot longer than I thought it would when I first started typing, so the TL;DR is everything I got to explore is how I hope to continue. But only in the home/appropriately designated private venues.

2023-02-08 05:04:36 +0000 UTC View Post

So this autistic 32-year-old recently single and now twice d..

So this autistic 32-year-old recently single and now twice divorced-ish decade long nude model with brief stints in domming, polyamory and porn is now on the hunt for something slightly more traditional. Should be a walk in the park (at night)...

2023-02-07 05:02:30 +0000 UTC View Post

"Oh damn...she wants to be wifed. That's new." Shit shifts ..

"Oh damn...she wants to be wifed. That's new." Shit shifts when you finally allow yourself to hear your truth. I thought for a long time monogamy and commitment were paths to hell. So I walked as far in the opposite direction as I could. Still ended up in the flames. Turns out it's not about the direction you choose, but making sure you choose the right one for the right reasons. If there are only two operating systems, fear and love, what are you making choices based on?

2023-02-06 05:02:33 +0000 UTC View Post

I once tried to write about my thoughts on gender. But the m..

I once tried to write about my thoughts on gender. But the more I did the more I realized how complicated it is. And I spent a lot of time thinking and researching and talking to other people with other experiences. I kept coming back to a place that seemed to be a bit of a unique version of the opinion that gender is a construct. But for the sake of conversation, that's where my predominant position applies. However in my own world, as I've gone through my journey of understanding what that means for me, I've learned the boundaries (through aggressive trial by fire) of which I want to play in extend to aesthetics and sexual preferences only. I absolutely love being in charge. But I've also been able to recently admit to myself I prefer being barefoot in the kitchen...

2023-02-05 05:02:30 +0000 UTC View Post

And yet same place, same people, hours before with more make..

And yet same place, same people, hours before with more makeup than I've worn in many many years - she was so ready to play. What felt like a mask for the last half-decade started to feel way more enjoyable than my androgyny. And the short hair started to somehow feel more femme than my previous mermaid mane.

2023-02-04 05:03:02 +0000 UTC View Post