Okay, so I spent the night chatting with a man and really en..
Okay, so I spent the night chatting with a man and really enjoying our conversation.
Though right after, the number 314 began haunting me again. Why? Lol!
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Fuck, I met a man I enjoy talking to. Now what? I said I wan..
Fuck, I met a man I enjoy talking to. Now what? I said I wanted to get fucked for Christmas, but I didn’t mean I wanted an interesting man to literally be dropped onto my lap on Christmas Eve. Also, I haven’t had sex in a few years, I’m not sure I have it in me to try this dating thing again.
2021-12-26 06:19:56 +0000 UTC View PostIn the last 2 days I’ve met an attorney and a former attorne..
In the last 2 days I’ve met an attorney and a former attorney. One asked me for my number, the other tipped me $30. Interesting and to my year.
2021-12-26 03:17:09 +0000 UTC View PostIt’s funny, I say I don’t want to date, but I’ve given two m..
It’s funny, I say I don’t want to date, but I’ve given two men my number this week. Hahaha! Not looking for anything, so why do I keep giving my number out? The most recent guy is super interesting, however, he doesn’t know I do porn. Dating is a problem for me for many reasons, my porn career being a HUGE problem for men. They think they can handle dating a girl like me, but they can’t. They always get jealous of my fans and I just can’t handle a man being jealous over men I don’t even know who pay to talk to me.
2021-12-25 23:53:15 +0000 UTC View PostCharging the electric car I’m renting to drive ride-share an..
Charging the electric car I’m renting to drive ride-share and I look to my right and see this sign: Security Cameras in use.
I figured, but at least I know this is NOT a good place to make content.
My ex “best friend” knew about 314 and me before she ever ad..
My ex “best friend” knew about 314 and me before she ever admitted she knew. She had been trying to come between him and me long before she “found out”. One of her excuses to keep him and me apart was the fact that he took her cat when she left the country and she threw a fit saying she didn’t want my dog anywhere near her cat. Now, my dog had never interacted with cats before, but the thing is, that bitch was abusive to that cat. My dog would’ve been much more friendly to that cat than she ever was. The friend I’m staying with now has two cats, she knew my dog had never been around cats but she brought my dog and me into her home anyway, and look what happened.
2021-12-25 21:37:05 +0000 UTC View PostOf course this song starts playing today. I’m sitting here w..
Of course this song starts playing today. I’m sitting here whining about how much I miss him, what else would play? Of course, it’s a song that’s 3 minutes and 14 seconds long.
2021-12-25 21:26:12 +0000 UTC View PostAlso, I’m only writing on here because my Twitter is permane..
Also, I’m only writing on here because my Twitter is permanently suspended, my Instagram has been shut down, and I’m in Facebook detention. I’m running out of apps to vent on and if I don’t vent, I explode.
I have far more haters than the average famous person and I’m not even famous, but my haters keep getting my social media sites shut down, it’s pathetic and hilarious.
Do you know what sucks? I can’t even go back and reread my p..
Do you know what sucks? I can’t even go back and reread my posts on here to see if I did bitch about 314s profile picture (the one of him and the other girl) here. I deleted everything I ever wrote about my feelings for him on this site.
2021-12-25 21:12:26 +0000 UTC View PostSorry I didn’t make any Christmas content this year, but her..
Sorry I didn’t make any Christmas content this year, but here’s some unedited throwbacks from last years set that I may have never posted, I don’t remember. Either way, enjoy. 😘
2021-12-25 20:54:12 +0000 UTC View PostI don’t like the holidays but trying to be festive(ish) for ..
I don’t like the holidays but trying to be festive(ish) for my passengers anyway. So merry mother fucking Christmas 🎄 that’s about as Christmasy as I can get. 😘
2021-12-25 20:41:58 +0000 UTC View PostThe best Christmas present in the world would be 314 (the ma..
The best Christmas present in the world would be 314 (the man who broke my heart) coming back and telling me he’s in love with me, but I don’t want him to know that because I’m still mad at him for breaking my heart. He watches my public social media profiles still, and instead of admitting I still have feelings for him, I talk shit to push him further and further away because as much as I love him, I don’t want to forgive him if he ever chooses to come back. I’d run right into his arms and I don’t want to do that. He’d take care of me and love me correctly, but I’m too stubborn to let him because I’m mad.
Yes, you read that correctly, I’d rather struggle on my own and spend my nights alone in bed with no one to hold me, than give the man I’m in love with a chance to love me because he made me mad back in 2018.
You see, 314 has been creating these STUPID burner accounts to contact me with ever since he ghosted me in 2018. He sits there and talks to me from these accounts while pretending to be someone else, he thinks I don’t know, but I always know. I’d block them, he’d create new ones, so I gave up; now I just pretend like I don’t know it’s him I’m speaking to. The fact that he does this instead of just having a real fucking conversation with me just makes me more mad. He plays games and I play right back.
It’s funny to me, though. I don’t lurk on his social media, I used to, but it hurt too much so I stopped. The last time I did, it was a picture of him and another girl as his Facebook profile pic, that was like February of this year. I bitched about that picture, I don’t remember what site, I think I bitched about it here, actually. Now, when I went into my message request folder on Facebook recently, I noticed he changed the picture. Now it’s just a picture of him, I like it much better. However, I know that man better than he knows himself and he rarely changes his profile pictures, so that leads me to believe he is watching me, reading my words and still taking my feelings into consideration even though we’re not together. If that’s true, that’s super sweet of him, but what would be sweeter is for him to stop playing pretend and just fucking talk to me.
Though, thanks to my current privacy settings, he can’t read my words on this site unless he pays for a membership.
I would give anything to spend the day drinking my sorrows a..
I would give anything to spend the day drinking my sorrows away, but I’m gonna go to work instead. Maybe if I can stop crying over him, I can make another car video. No promises though, I may be too sad to cum today. 🤣
I did make an audio file for you guys last night, but I have to figure out a way to convert it to video before I can upload it. I think I found an online site to do that from, but I can’t work on that file from a house with children in it, so you’ll just have to wait.
Everyone from my old “friends” group thinks I’m a slut becau..
Everyone from my old “friends” group thinks I’m a slut because I slept with and accidentally fell in love with my ex “best friend’s” EX-boyfriend. They had been broken up for a couple of years before he and I slept together. Yes, he’s the man I’m heart broken over still.
Funny thing is, she wasn’t actually my best friend, she was just a girl I felt sorry for so I remained friends with her for way too long.
Anyway, my friend I’m currently staying with is more of a best friend to me than that girl ever was. It’s interesting that her ex is on his way over to drop off the kids and I’m currently hiding in the bathroom because I don’t want to see that man. We haven’t seen each other in years. He was hitting me up after they broke up, trying to be my friend but I wasn’t interested. I guess I’m not as “slutty” as my old “friends” think I am. Huh 🤔
Oh, and I can’t leave this part out. Do you know how I met this AMAZING friend of mine that I’m currently staying with? Through my ex HUSBAND. She’s the girl he started dating shortly after he and I divorced. We all hung out together as friends. Her and I have been friends for 19 years, yet she broke up with my ex many years ago. Neither her, nor I speak to that man anymore. He wasn’t a bad guy, he just wasn’t the guy for either of us. He shares the same first name as the man I’m currently heartbroken over.
My life is a soap opera y’all, or at least it used to be.
Anyway, I don’t know what my ex “best friend” told her ex about me after she found out about him and me that made him hate me so much, but I know she was talking mad shit about me after she found out about him and me because she didn’t want us to be together and he left me because of whatever she said about me. It was all lies, but he won’t even speak to me now.
I would’ve NEVER chosen to be with my ex “best friend’s” ex had I not had real and genuine feelings for him, but she went around painting me as a “gold digger” but that was her, and calling me a “slut” but she’s more of a slut than I’ve ever been, after she found out about her ex and me. She was about to marry another man, she didn’t even want her ex back, but she still chose to destroy what he and I had and he’s the only man I’ve ever truly been in love with. I would’ve spent the rest of my life with that man, but he hates me, so none of that matters now.
The worst part of this pain is I thought he loved me, he actions implied he loved me, but then he ghosted me without an explanation. Now I don’t know if he loved me or was using me for sex. Our old friends claimed he was just using me for sex after he left me, but that was my ex “best friend” and his male best friend who was desperately trying to fuck me and wouldn’t stop despite the fact that I was NEVER attracted to that man, and both of those people are pathological liars, so who the fuck knows what the truth is, I sure as fuck don’t know.
The reminders of him that trigger memories of him, drive me ..
The reminders of him that trigger memories of him, drive me crazy. Sometimes I think I should stay single because I’m still heartbroken over him, other times, I feel maybe I should just go out and fuck another man just to see if it makes the universe stop sending me reminders of him.
2021-12-25 17:51:00 +0000 UTC View PostSo I’m talking to my friend about another man I may be inter..
So I’m talking to my friend about another man I may be interested in possibly meeting and I look over and see my rice cooker is sitting on the counter, unplugged, and I look over and see it’s at 10:14. So his birthday is 3/14 and mine is 3/10. Why? Why? Why? Does this man’s memory continue to haunt me whenever I’m discussing another man???
2021-12-25 17:38:45 +0000 UTC View PostSo I ugly cry over the man who broke my heart in September 2..
So I ugly cry over the man who broke my heart in September 2018 on the way home last night. I wake up, check my TikTok and see that my most recent video has 314 views. 3/14 is his birthday. Now, that’s a slap in the face from the universe on Christmas morning. My friends got me some cool gifts, but what the fuck is this about?!
2021-12-25 16:59:38 +0000 UTC View PostMen on cam often tell me that they think I should give relat..
Men on cam often tell me that they think I should give relationship advice out of YouTube. I laugh. Every relationship I’ve been in has failed and I’ve chosen not to date or fuck for a few years now because I’m so bad at love. So, relationship tip number one: How do you know it’s LOVE? When you’ve been crying over his ass for a few years after it ended. Yes, I found myself ugly crying over him yet again tonight on my way home, and I’m not proud to admit this.
2021-12-25 10:24:42 +0000 UTC View PostMan, when I’m already missing the man who broke my heart, th..
Man, when I’m already missing the man who broke my heart, the universe has to rub it in my face, and on Christmas too, what the fuck?! Having a great conversation with my passenger, she’s telling me about this awesome program she thinks I should check out though her employer, but it turns out, she works for the company he works for. FUCK!!!!
2021-12-25 07:48:30 +0000 UTC View PostSo I definitely just made Santa’s naughty list. This dirty g..
So I definitely just made Santa’s naughty list. This dirty girl snuck out to her car for a Christmas Eve cum. I’m in a secret location, but unfortunately I couldn’t show too much, so you’ll just have to enjoy the sound effects. 😘
2021-12-25 05:49:24 +0000 UTC View PostI wasn’t planning on keeping the hairy pussy, but I decided ..
I wasn’t planning on keeping the hairy pussy, but I decided not to shave it all. At least not for while. I’m just tired of shaving constantly. I’ve been doing it for years. Time for a change, but I’m still gonna shave my pussy lips, those NEED to be smooth.
Also, I have major razor burn right now just from trimming my bush. 🤣
Do you know what I’m really frustrated about? I wanna get fu..
Do you know what I’m really frustrated about? I wanna get fucked long and hard for Christmas and maybe I could but I’m still too in love with a man from my past to even let a new guy touch me. 🤬
There’s this guy I kinda wanna be introduced to. My friend’s man’s, friend, but I’m totally avoiding meeting him like ever, just so we won’t end up in bed together. He’s single, he sounds like a great guy, he’s hot, but I ain’t trying to catch feelings for nobody and unfortunately, if the sex is good, that could potentially turn into feelings. So I’m just gonna keep being lonely and masturbating while avoiding this man at all cost.
For those of you who don’t know, I haven’t allowed a man to touch me since January 2018. After my heart was broken in September 2018, I went out and tried to have as many rebounds as I could. Nameless, meaningless sex with strangers was supposed to make me feel all better, but it was terrible each time, so I stopped having sex altogether. I haven’t had good sex since July 2018 and it was with the man who left me heartbroken.
Though y’all should be thankful for the man who broke my heart and the strangers who couldn’t satisfy me, if it weren’t for them, I would’ve never started doing porn. You see, I was so heartbroken that every time I tried to masturbate, I couldn’t cum because I would just start thinking about him, and that would make me sad. Finally, I decided to make an adult video. I had wanted to for years, but I was too scared. Somehow, I gathered the courage, made the video, uploaded it onto my first website, and the adrenaline rush I got was amazing, plus the thought of strangers watching me turned me on enough to finally make me cum. If it weren’t for that heartbreak, “KaylaNicole999” would’ve never been “born”.
If I’m being honest, part of it was pure vindictiveness. When I decided to make my pornhub page shortly after making that first video, my thoughts were: I’ll make that mother fucker miss me. I had no way to ensure I popped up on his recommended videos list when you first open pornhub, but I knew the kind of shit hen likes, like pawgs, for example, so now I am sure to make a bunch of “pawg” videos so I can use that tag and hope he can’t avoid seeing me. You can block on pornhub, but I don’t know if when you block an account if it prevents your videos from appearing on your feed. Also, I don’t know if he has an account, when I watch pornhub, I watch anonymously.
I didn’t want him back, I was so mad at him, I just wanted to make him cry every time one of my videos appeared in his feed. 🤷♀️
I seem like this “nice”, “sweet” girl, and I am, as long as you treat me right, but I’m the wrong bitch to fuck with.
Here’s a bit of the backstory: In January 2019, months after he ghosted me, I ran into him at the club with a girl he told me was “just a friend” when we were seeing each other. So that night I text his friend asking, “do you wanna fuck?” I didn’t hear back from said friend, so I fucked a random. The sex was terrible, but I faked it, took video of myself faking it, sent that video to his friend, just to be a bitch. I knew his friend would tell him I sent it… Friend later texts. By that time I’m sobering up and crying in my hallway, but I still stupidly have that friend send a car for me anyway. I cry on his friend’s shoulder for hours, but then friend offered me wine… I don’t want to talk about what happened after that. I was miserable for a year. It was a terrible year.
Anyways, by March of 2020 I started my pornhub page.
I’m frustrated by my inability to make content right now. I’..
I’m frustrated by my inability to make content right now. I’m frustrated that I’m only averaging like $10/hour after expenses driving ride-share. I’m frustrated that I don’t have many options right now for work because I don’t have a car and I’m in an area with no public transportation. It would cost me at least $60 one way to get to any nearby store from where I’m staying, I can’t even go work at Walmart right now. I know this is temporary. I have a plan, a plan that’s going to take me from state to state and maybe then I can finally escape the memories of the man who broke my heart. I’m frustrated that my intuition tells me he’s coming back, but he never does. I don’t know why I can’t stop believing he’ll come back and just let go. Probably because when everyone thought my grandma was going to die in 2018, my intuition told me she wouldn’t, and I was right, she’s still here. The same thing happened this year with my grandpa, everyone said he wouldn’t make it, but I knew he would, my intuition told me so, and I was right, he made it. I’m frustrated I can’t visit my grandparents due to family drama with my mom and her sister. I’m just so fucking frustrated at every aspect of my life right now, but I’m thankful to finally be in a good and safe home with people who truly love me and care about my well being. The friends I’m staying with are incredible people and I’m so thankful for them. Also, I should be able to get my bankruptcy paid off soon even though I’m not making much money just because my expenses are so low currently. Life is slowly moving forward and I know this situation is just temporary.
I found out recently that ride-share drivers in my state earn 44% below the national average, so I’m currently in a really bad state to be driving ride-share in. It sucks, but it is what it is.
My situation is only temporary, if all goes well, within the next 12 months I’ll have a job that pays me really good money and takes me from state to state. I don’t wanna discuss my plan, trying to keep it hush, hush because I don’t need people in my new industry knowing I’m an adult content creator, it could jeopardize my plan and make it harder for me to find work in that industry. Don’t worry, I don’t plan on ending my career as an adult content creator, this job will actually allow me more time to create.
So I was gonna make a car video last night as I waited for t..
So I was gonna make a car video last night as I waited for the electric vehicle I’m renting to drive ride-share to charge, but I forgot my toy. Thank fucking God I forgot that toy!! A cop rolled up on me as I was charging the car. As much as I wanna make content, I also don’t wanna catch a charge for making content in a deserted parking lot. 🤣
2021-12-24 18:20:47 +0000 UTC View PostJust so y’all know, the reason I can’t really make content f..
Just so y’all know, the reason I can’t really make content from where I’m staying is because of the children. I can’t be noisy. I don’t have a bedroom. I can’t take over my friends bathroom to make content, and I have nowhere private to upload content from other than the bathroom.
2021-12-23 22:09:44 +0000 UTC View PostI appreciate you all who pay membership fees to connect with..
I appreciate you all who pay membership fees to connect with me. I appreciate the men who don’t ask me to date them. I’m a virtual entertainer only, but these strangers hitting me up on social media drive me BATTY.
2021-12-23 21:11:54 +0000 UTC View PostFuck those “good morning beautiful” texts. If you can’t love..
Fuck those “good morning beautiful” texts. If you can’t love me like this, I don’t want your love.
No, this isn’t to me, my friends man often writes these cute notes to her on the mirror in the mornings. She got a good one. This is adorable!
They’ve been together a couple years already and he still puts in this much effort into letting her know she’s loved and special and wanted. I’ve never had anything like this and I refuse to date again until I find someone who puts this much effort into being with me.
She’s had her share of terrible guys, she deserves this.
The closest I’ve ever got to feeling special was with 314, but we were just casually fucking and I accidentally fell in love, then he broke my heart.
I was with my ex before 314, for years, more than half a decade. I asked for 1 day a week with him, and he couldn’t even give me that. He was always too busy with work, and when he did spend time with me, he would complain that he should be working. He spent lots of money on me, but a man’s time means far more to me than fancy gifts.
It’s just easier to be single now. Nobody disappoints you when you’re single.
I know there are plenty of good men in this world who would treat me like a Queen, but the problem is, I thought 314 was that man, and he disappointed me more than any man before him did by his actions in the end. Now I’m still in love with him and I just can’t give new men a chance because I still love him.
The one lesson I’ve learned in life is: Getting under someone new to get over someone else just doesn’t work.
I wish I could be that girl to talk mad shit about 314 after..
I wish I could be that girl to talk mad shit about 314 after he left me heartbroken. I wish I didn’t miss him still. I wish I could look back and say, “what did I ever see in him?” But he looks amazing and I just can’t hate him no matter how hard I try.
The fact that I can’t hate him pisses me off, though. 🤬😤
Haven’t shaved my pussy in months because I just haven’t had..
Haven’t shaved my pussy in months because I just haven’t had time. Now I’m trying to clean up my bush, but I’m gonna need more than one razor. No, I’m not somewhere I can make content from, but I quick after shower pussy peek can be made quietly.
2021-12-23 20:20:46 +0000 UTC View PostSo I turned Facebook messenger on again and I checked my “me..
So I turned Facebook messenger on again and I checked my “message requests - spam” folder. I’m already regretting doing that. Why do men think it’s okay to send strange women messages like this on social media? Yes, I’m single, but that doesn’t mean I’m available. No, you can’t touch me, ever. As for having a Black man in me, yes, I have, multiple times, but unless you subscribe to my websites, I won’t reply to your DMs.
I have 314s messages sent to this folder. He’s the man that broke my heart in 2018 and the main reason I have chosen not to date or fuck in the last few years. I was hoping I would feel nothing when I saw his Facebook profile pic, last time I checked, it was a pic of him and his new girl. This time it was just him, but now I'm missing him. Fuck me!! Why can't I stop loving this man?