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That was some fucked up and heartfelt shit yesterday. Surpri..
That was some fucked up and heartfelt shit yesterday. Surprise mf-ers, sometimes I'm a person. My scar therapy, to erase my incision, was supposed to begin today. However, my surgeon had a sudden medical obligation bump my appointment to tomorrow. So, you wonderful loves and your dicks will just have to settle for video private messages today. 😍 Keep in mind, while waiting patiently, that there are MANY messages I'll be answering. Please, be kind. I'll wear something barely called clothing and you'll get to enjoy my new physique. I'm just not ready to uncover my scar, yet.
2018-05-14 16:13:12 +0000 UTC View PostWarning: Graphic sh*t. I stood at a man's feet, last night, ..
Warning: Graphic sh*t. I stood at a man's feet, last night, praying.( My family wanted to take me to see a movie.)I begged God to spare his life, to give him one more day with his wife. She was crying, on the phone with 911. After running from theater to theater, yelling in superhuman volume for help, two men came forth to help this person. Only two. The movie theater staff, no hate on them, had not one person giving this collapsed husband CPR or standing by his wife. At first, it was just me. I happened to need a restroom break, in the middle of the movie when this all happened. This man was on the floor, on his back, convulsing. That's when I saw no one was helping and ran from theater to theater YELLING that a nurse or doctor was needed for a medical emergency. I ran back to the wife, to stand by her side to try to start CPR. His shaking had stopped, in the short period of time I ran for help. None of the staff stepped forward. They were in shock, as if none of them had ever seen anything like it. I began to ask the wife questions, as I approached to give CPR. He wasn't diabetic, he hadn't taken any drugs, he had no known medical conditions or allergies. My mom taught me to ask these things, when I was little. She saved a man's life(and limb) after his leg had been amputated in a motorcycle accident she witnessed, as a very young mother. I was afraid. My heart dropped out of my chest, realizing that I had no strength, my stitches had just been removed only days earlier. My entire body is weak, albeit stubborn. In the moment I dropped to begin CPR, two men appeared, from the theaters I ran to for help. A Navy medic and an off duty State Trooper. God told me to step back, to step back and do only what I could do- pray. The Navy medic began chest compressions and the Trooper began his assessment, sweeping the man's mouth. The man began to turn blue right in front of my eyes. I began to cry. I knew in my heart what was happening. I just knew. My mother, bless her heart has spent her lifetime giving life, to four children and caring for countless patients as a nurse for almost 40 years. I prayed the only prayers I knew, standing at the man's feet, careful not to get in the way of the men who were giving chest compressions I'd only seen done in movies- they seemed to pump his chest so hard that his body pushed his stomach out like a balloon. I asked my departed dad and my grandpa to put in a word with God. Not there, not then, please don't let this man die. I spoke to my recently departed grandchild, who hadn't been given the chance to be born yet...... ask the Hall of Souls to wait for this one, just one more day. Baby Angel told me God had something to tell me. I need to listen. It was then, I knew. The man undergoing chest compressions had just taken his last breath, looking at his wife. The men didn't stop CPR. They kept going until paramedics arrived. Right there, on the floor of this movie theater lobby, a heroic effort began to revive the man. They hooked him up to an IV, gave CPR and intubated the man with a breathing bag to force air into his lungs. I knew. My heart knew. This man was shocked with the defibrillator. A team of uniformed men, strong and capable, never stopped trying to revive the man. I watched one of the assisting paramedics fill a syringe with a fluid, I heard the word epinephrine from one of them. Then, I heard the lead paramedic tell him no. It had been several minutes since the man had stopped breathing. His facial expression was surreal- eyes open so wide, they looked as if they'd pop out of his head. Glazed. His face was blue. As they wheeled him to the ambulance, in what I assume was a merciful show for his wife, I saw the man's hands. His hands were blue. His body was silent. I knew. My family came to my side, not knowing why I'd been gone so long to use the bathroom. In tears, I told them what had just happened. I asked them to pray with me. They did. I told them that I knew the man had died. God told me. After a little while of being in shock, the theater manager came to me, told me they got word the man didn't survive. He was young, in his early to mid 40s, no known medical conditions. They declared he had a massive heart attack, one that I understood must have blown out one of his chamber walls. He died quickly, even before paramedics arrived. Two things happened at that moment. First, I thanked God that the man was able to hold his wife's hand when he took his last breath. That was a gift that God gave to them, both. Second, I needed to thank my mother. I, admittedly, was a horribly difficult child to raise. I was defiant, disrespectful, and unappreciative. I never fully understood what being my mom was like for her. She raised four children, on her own, working whatever jobs she could going to school to get her nursing degree. My mother watched people die often, in the hospital where she worked. I never understood the toll that must have taken on her spirit, her soul. Yet, she still came home and raised four little girls. After seeing death, after helplessly comforting people in their last moments. I never understood what that felt like. Not until last night. Last night, I watched a man die. Last night, a lifetime of love and respect for my mother was born. Late in life, an appreciation for her was long overdue. It finally sunk in. Mom, I love you. I love you because you never gave up. I love you for teaching us to love God each in our own way. I love you for having the strength to come home, after countless times of being fundamentally depleted, as a human being. I love you for being the woman I pray I may be, one day. You, mom, are my hero. Happy Mother's Day, mom.
2018-05-13 23:20:05 +0000 UTC View PostMy healing is much more rapid than expected. I begin scar er..
My healing is much more rapid than expected. I begin scar erasure on Monday. My full nudes are exclusive, only to you!🤗
2018-05-12 06:29:13 +0000 UTC View PostJust two more days...... I've been healing at a deliberately..
Just two more days...... I've been healing at a deliberately accelerated pace, under very strict surgical and nutritional supervision. It's painfully frustrating and exhausting, especially because I refused to take opioid pain killers, after the first ten days. I nearly ran into a potentially life-threatening complication, because I was being stubborn. After that happened, I had to knock it off and listen. I am nearly camera ready, even if my middle is still not quite ready to come out of hiding. The are many of you now, I'm so grateful you've stuck with me. You have my sincerest word that my new figure will be published HERE, exclusively nude, as soon as I'm ready. So, my loves, two more days and I'll be well enough to answer all of your messages via topless video. I want to look my best and need a little more rest. I've got something really nice planned for the end of this week. My love to you all, thank you for standing strong with your gal.😊
2018-05-09 19:06:02 +0000 UTC View PostAs soon as I get back from my post-op followup appointment, ..
As soon as I get back from my post-op followup appointment, I'll be spending my day chatting with all of you through dm. I'm mostly chair-ridden, and will have many hours today to gab with all of you!
2018-04-25 17:30:48 +0000 UTC View PostAfter respectful obervation, of a family tragedy, it's time ..
After respectful obervation, of a family tragedy, it's time to get back to work! I'm going to be switching things up a little, just for a couple of weeks. Yesterday, after the devout generosity of some of you, I was able to undergo an abdominal surgery. This surgery was meant to remove that awful scar on my stomach, as well as the stretch marks I grew from being a superhero. I'm still heavily bandaged and see my doctor in a couple of hours. No, my fabulously plump legs and outrageous behind are, and will remain, untouched by surgery. The work I had done will only reform the shape of my waist, making the luscious curvature of my behind more noticeable. A bit of loose skin was removed, as well as more contouring done. A special treat, for going through this monstrosity, is that the extra skin, above my furry area, has also been removed. It's going to look spectacular. On the flip side of this, there is a blinding, silver lining. I'm in extraordinary pain. I've had a multitude of surgeries. Balls out, you guys. I'm 40. I've lived a lot of life. After losing a massive amount of weight, about 20 years ago, I'll never be able to regain my original shape. Without skin removal, my physique will always look sloppy. So, when I turned 40 last year, I said, "Fuck it." I'm going to put myself back together. It's time to take care of myself. I'm not a recreational participant of opiods. I've seen too many lives destroyed by them. So, I'll take them as long as I need to and turn the rest back into fire department. They have a drop box for that stuff. For now, though, I've got the most incredible pain, in the simplest ways of explaining it, from having the circumference of my abdomen and back removed. So, yours truly will be heavily medicated, downright assinine on some days. To make up for the lack of shooting, I'll be offering FREE panties, thigh highs, shoes and other apparel . These will be on a first come, first serve bases. I will also be sending signed collections of 8x10s and mailing them out to you. All I ask is that you pay for shipping. I'm an honest woman and will send you the receipt of the shipping charge. Beginning today, until Friday, please dm me the request of what you'd like as a souvenir. I'll kindly and swiftly reply with the estimated shipping cost. Please, keep in mind that the shoes will cost more to send, they are heavier. I also have gowns, still free, but, you'll have to pay for the shipping. There are a few hundred of you on this page....The 8x10 gifts are of all genres, PG-13, R, and XXX. You will receive one of each, at no cost. It was the generosity of all of you who've tipped that made this event being possible. My deepest love and gratitude to all of you, and to the few of you who've gone the extra mile. For now, I'm going to go through thousands of images in my files. I'll be uploading some really cute personal pictures. Much love, all.
2018-04-25 14:53:50 +0000 UTC View PostHere it is! The only full length scene to be posted to this ..
Here it is! The only full length scene to be posted to this page. There are a few things I would like for you to keep in mind, before choosing to watch this. First, the director and my costar were from overseas. The lighting on this set was what they were used to using. Second, my costar has a bandage on her breast. She had burned her boob while getting ready to shoot, with a curling iron. You may catch a glimpse of that. She was mortified that anyone would see it. I assured her it wouldn't be a big deal. I hope you all enjoy the clip. I'll be answering your messages now.
2018-04-19 21:02:09 +0000 UTC View PostI'll be uploading a full length scene today, as a thank you ..
I'll be uploading a full length scene today, as a thank you for all of your generosity and kindness. Over the last week, my grandfather had fallen ill. He was the oldest living member of my bloodline, a charming man with a smiling love about his eyes. Even until the moment he passed, he lived with joy in his heart. My family originated in Italy. He spoke Italian often, many of our family will be coming to the states for his services. While my mind is a bit cluttered, after the loss of this great man, I will do the best I can to do my bidding here. The video is a VERY large file. It will take a couple of hours to convert and a bit to upload to this website. Please, keep in mind that this is raw footage, no editing, no music. It's almost like you'll be holding the camera. I was supposed to shoot with Julie Cash yesterday. In fact, it was after I got off the plane, from San Francisco to LA, stepping onto the curb to call an Uber, that I received the message there was a death in the family. Julie was gracious, of course, and I spent the next several hours trying to get home. With that, I'll bid you adieu,for today, and get to work on that video.
2018-04-19 18:09:12 +0000 UTC View PostOh, yeah......there it is. Climb on top and let's go for a r..
Oh, yeah......there it is. Climb on top and let's go for a ride!
2018-04-17 02:00:33 +0000 UTC View PostAhhhhhh, fresh BBC. A brand new performer with a natural gif..
Ahhhhhh, fresh BBC. A brand new performer with a natural gift to be on camera. Simply exquisite! This man's name is Chris Cardio. In it, we played an unusual scene, in which I was a potential widow looking to collect an abnormally large policy payout. Chris played the adjuster......you guys will find this one funny and exciting.
2018-04-17 01:57:44 +0000 UTC View PostI love this one because Jenna Hexxx is a powerhouse performe..
I love this one because Jenna Hexxx is a powerhouse performer! She's one of the most beautiful women I've ever worked with. This scene was a foot fetish production, turned full lesbian video.
2018-04-17 01:51:18 +0000 UTC View PostHi all.....I've been a super busy bee lately. As you all kno..
Hi all.....I've been a super busy bee lately. As you all know, the industry has shut down production and people are going crazy. These times always bring out the worst in some adult actors. A few major things have occurred over the last few days. You may have read about them. First, and most shockingly, was the AVN story about the male actor, Rico Strong, being accused of sexual a ssault while on set. There's a media firestorm surrounding this story. Like the politics of the American people, there seems to be a cut and dry mentality. You're either supposed to be a staunch supporter of one or the other. I've worked with this man, enjoyed his performance and company on set. We're both veterans of the industry and have both been celebrated, in one way or another. If you go the AVN website, avn dot com, you'll be able to see the full story. One thing I absolutely can't stand is a witch hunt, or, in this case, a warlock hunt. It's the egregious slaughter of someone's reputation, as a form of attention mongering or to benefit one's career. We've seen many stories in the media, over the last year. Men being thrown to the wolves. It's a conviction by ratings. I happen to love men and I believe that not all of them are sex crazed misogynists who abuse women. The actions of the few do not define the masses. It's the same with race, religion, orientation, etc. A person is defined by their character and their choices. This particular man, who's been an actor for 14 years, has suddenly had his life ripped out of his hands. He's got a family, a career, and his own personal identity. They've all been destroyed in the last 30 days. Trial by media. Imagine, if this was you. Now, imagine if there was actual video footage, no freaking kidding, video footage, proving your 100% innocence. This raw footage has been released to the public, vindicating the claims against you to be false....at the very least, even for the skeptical, extremely questionable. You think you're going to get your life back, right? WRONG. The trial by social media completely ignores the raw video footage, proving that you've done nothing wrong. You are FUCKED. Your family suffers, your ability to work evaporates....you will lose your home and everything that you've worked years to earn. All because of a fashionable trend to become popular, by incinerating a man in the media. Directors, talent, agencies......they're afraid to speak up. They're terrified that if they stand behind this man,that they won't fit the right side of the argument being held in the media. That they'll appear to be monsters. Unpopular. A marketing death. Fuck that, I say. An innocent person is an innocent person. I'm hoping that enough people will see the story, read both sides of the argument, and make an intelligent conclusion of their own. I would like to have a neutral conversation about this matter......we can hold a platform for this discussion either in dms or in the comment section below. All I'm asking is that you keep in mind: What if this was YOU? Other than that, I'm a bit scattered from the chaos of the moratorium. It's financially devastating to most. However, I'm traveling all week to do some photo shoots in some glorious locations. I will only publish those here. My treat. Also, as soon as I say goodbye to my family, who's in town from Texas, I'll be uploading a collection of videos to keep you company.
2018-04-16 17:36:50 +0000 UTC View PostThere are quite a few of you who would like to order a custo..
There are quite a few of you who would like to order a custom, for the first time. I'll make the process, for this particular opportunity, easy to understand. Custom prices vary, depending on the length and advanced performance requested. Most customs range from $40 to $140. For today's offer, of $40, you will get a nude tease/talking clip that is 5 minutes long. Toys are available, but, only externally (ie vibrators). Videos that are longer than 5 minutes, require a costar, or penetration are possible on a sliding price scale. Those more advanced video orders will be available to place, beginning tomorrow. For tonight's festivities, you first send me a private message detailing the idea you'd like for me to perform. You may send a general idea and trust my improvisational skill, or, you may send me a detailed description of the clip you'd like to receive. Dialogue shouldn't be exact, but, give examples of what you'd like for me to say. When I receive your message, I'll look it over. We will then agree that the clip is possible or not, for the $40, 5 minute talking/tease clip. Once you get the green light, which is more than likely, you send $40 as a tip. I will be notified, via a special message with your screen name, that you have sent the tip. There are no mistakes about whether you sent it or that you sent the proper amount. The system sends me a private message, from your own inbox, the tip you send and how much. It's very safe and can be considered your receipt of purchase. That's all you have to do. I will then reply that I've received your tip and will inform you when your clip will be created. Keep in mind, videos take only five minutes to make, but, 30-40 minutes to compress and another 30-45 minutes to upload.....each. If 100 of you orders today, you can only imagine how long that will take to complete. However, every single person who orders before midnight will have their request honored, even if it takes me until tomorrow to complete. I wanted to offer you all something fun and affordable to enjoy.
2018-04-13 01:23:02 +0000 UTC View PostFiles take considerable time to upload. I will get to all of..
Files take considerable time to upload. I will get to all of you.
2018-04-13 00:11:21 +0000 UTC View PostI'm having some computer trouble. Your messages and videos w..
I'm having some computer trouble. Your messages and videos will be delivered ASAP. 😘
2018-04-12 20:06:32 +0000 UTC View PostTo spare you all the entirety of watching a raw shoot, I've ..
To spare you all the entirety of watching a raw shoot, I've narrowed the segments down into tolerable lengths. In this part, my costar's nerves began to get the better of him. That happens to male costars, sometimes. They get wound up about performing and think too much. You've all had this happen to you. Every man does. The more he thought about it, the more difficult it was for him to recover. See, male performing has a multitude of stopping and starting, including the changing of the lights and cameras. These things take time. If a male isn't prepared for that anatomical stress, his ability is dramatically affected. There's zero shame in that. ALL male performers are affected by this circumstance at one time or another. Viagra or Cialis is almost always on set. Because I was a guest, the director was not from my staff. My directors always have a plentiful supply of male enhancers ready. Because it's NORMAL. Four to twelve hours is an unreasonable amount of time to expect a guy to maintain an erection. I mean, DAMN. They're trying to make a movie, not kill a bitch. Lol....... He pulled through after some rest, water break, something to eat, and some kind coaching. Eventually, men tend to let go of their nerves and see it for what it is: A very interesting job. I really hope you've all enjoy today's presentation. I'll be getting back to answering messages in the morning. This took about ten hours to edit, convert, and upload. My big butt is tired!
2018-04-11 05:46:48 +0000 UTC View PostIn this part of the production, my costar needed to be taugh..
In this part of the production, my costar needed to be taught about camera angles, about the chronological structure of performing. He was excited to make his wish come true and more than willing to be directed. Such a sweetheart, he kept a bit of a secret from me until later on in the shoot- he met me nearly 8 years earlier, when he first arrived to Vegas. He remembered me all that time, even though I hadn't started making adult films until a couple of years after we met. Once he told me how we met, I was floored. Truly honored. This man came to the city, for work. When the economy in Las Vegas unexpectedly crashed, thousands of people lost their jobs. The market crash truly did harm to the residents of this amazing city. I hired this man, temporarily, to be my personal trainer, at my gym. No funny business, strictly professional. He remembered it, all that time, as the opportunity he needed to get back on his feet. He had since built a successful business and chose to begin performing, starting with me. This was such a wonderful memory for me. He was a beautiful spirit. Working with this man was fulfilling in many ways.
2018-04-11 04:55:27 +0000 UTC View PostSuch an exciting bit to share with you all. This performer w..
Such an exciting bit to share with you all. This performer was picked up by an adult male modeling agency, specializing in Ebony performers. When asked who he wanted to work with, during his first on-camera performance, he chose me. This New York based agency contacted me and we set up the shoot. In the next few posts, you'll see the introduction, the beginning of the scene, and what happens when male performers get nervous. This entire experience was a learning opportunity for him and he was a good sport about the whole thing.
2018-04-11 03:25:32 +0000 UTC View Post
A pick-me-up if you're recovering from a long week......more..
A pick-me-up if you're recovering from a long week......more to come today!
2018-03-31 16:59:03 +0000 UTC View PostJust before he puts his face between my legs, I want him to ..
Just before he puts his face between my legs, I want him to show me how much he wants it. I love a man on his knees........
2018-03-30 19:18:36 +0000 UTC View PostJust arriving at the gym, loving my strong muscular lower bo..
Just arriving at the gym, loving my strong muscular lower body. Can't wait to get to your messages today!
2018-03-28 12:52:45 +0000 UTC View PostThis may be like placing bbs in my sock, before going to the..
This may be like placing bbs in my sock, before going to the gym, but, I've got to get something off of my chest (no pun intended.) I've noticed, since navigating some suspicious activity, that my direction may be changing for the future. I've poured my heart and soul into basically anything that I do, only to experience exceptional stress for very little return. What I mean is, I've committed years of time and energy to the growth of one department in my company, my brand. It came to my attention that I may have been getting ripped off. Seriously. I don't have anyone to tell me what is good, what is average, and, what is not realistically bad to appear on a P&L statement. If any of you are in any kind of management position, or, own your own business, you'll know what I'm talking about. I've got a few websites and have noticed a trend in the sites that are independent of a few staff members. They're doing better, way better, than the other one. I wonder why that is? I don't expect anyone to care, but, don't be surprised if one of my paid sites is no longer around. I don't work my butt off for someone to steal from me. That's fucked up. I don't steal from people. Golden rule applies to porn, too. My point is that I'm growing weary and have no proof of who is committing the leak. Maybe this is just another leap that I need to make to progress. Those are my inside thoughts. Now, about this camming thing....geez, I can barely tolerate trying to do a member's show while it's being interrupted by a regular show. The programming has been the same for years. It's virtually impossible to get any kind of entertaining or conversation accomplished without making most people feel ignored. I'm going to do my best, though. It's free for my website members. In fact, I've got to go set up the studio now. I'm hoping to have lots of pictures to share tonight!
2018-03-22 22:45:48 +0000 UTC View PostFeeling a little bogged down by the weight of the world? Ha..
Feeling a little bogged down by the weight of the world? Have no fear, Mistress is here. I thoroughly enjoy taking the pressure of decision out of a sub's hands. It will be my pleasure to relieve someone of that strain.
2018-03-20 17:16:56 +0000 UTC View PostThis was such a monumental scene- On this particular day, my..
This was such a monumental scene- On this particular day, my costar was just transitioning from his native city of Philadelphia to Las Vegas to target career goals. He was very specific about his goals, risking everything to start over in the City of Lights. Rome Major, the actor seen in this clip, is an energetic powerhouse performer. Working with him is always a pleasure. He's able to target what his counterpart enjoys the most and he nails it, no pun intended. Creampies are something most women avoid in the industry, if you can believe it. The risk of pregnancy, by more than a multitude of fathers, is the greatest fear. Also, there is an increased risk of transmission of STIs. Well, I haven't been able to get pregnant for almost 20 years, after having my tubes tied. And, I believe the risk is about the same with internal contributions. Besides, I just LOVE having a man cum inside me. The more, the merrier, I say. My next fantasy scene, because I've already done the group scene, is a mutli-creampie scene. Holy sh*t, that idea makes me hot. I just want to line up a fierce number of tested men and just have them all bust their nut in my pussy. Woo!
2018-03-16 18:31:11 +0000 UTC View PostPlease bear with me....this is a scene that I found in my ar..
Please bear with me....this is a scene that I found in my archives that's never been published. I wanted to share it because I thought it was positively outrageous. Even if size comparison isn't your thing, it's still fun to watch. When I found it, I laughed my ass off. My costar, Dante, was such a good sport. I work with him often. The poor guy takes so much abuse. lol.....enjoy!
2018-03-12 21:00:53 +0000 UTC View Post