I know, I have a ton of mosquito bites lolz. I had spent way too much time outside with a lot of bugs flying around and I hated it but I was trying to enjoy nature and a nice view when I got these. I was able to photoshop them out in the pictures but I didn't have much time to edit these clips. Oh well!
2021-05-27 02:12:20 +0000 UTC View Post
It's Workout Wednesday! Featuring some more bush~ In hopes of finding healthier stress-free activities to think more positively, I've been looking into things like law of attraction, affirmations, meditation, and mindfulness. And I feel like they all sort of interconnect with one another. I've learned of them before months ago, but it was just a cool idea to try some time which I never got around to. Then, I rediscovered them as I was watching some documentaries and videos about them among other things. Law of attraction and affirmations is kind of neat, mainly because they require things to be said out loud or written down. To me, it makes it more official written down. I do feel a sense of relaxation when it comes to law of attraction, but kind of feel like a fraud when I do affirmations. But they're both things I just haven't gotten used to yet. And then there are meditation and mindfulness. I do try my best to be aware of myself and considerate of others. I'm careful of what to say around certain people because I either don't know them too well yet to know how they'll react or I do know them well enough that they'll get defensive or uncomfortable if I talk about specific topics. I guess that's partially why irl I'm usually quiet and observant. I tend to speak when spoken to or when I feel I have something of value to add, or something funny lolz. But meditation baffles me. I get that I'm supposed to not really think of anything or do anything, but how exactly does it make me feel anything? Also, my mind wanders a lot and I tend to overthink things which doesn't exactly help. How does one simply not think? The only time I don't really think of much is when I'm at the aquarium or the park. Maybe that's my meditation? Idk. Does anyone have any experience with law of attraction, affirmations, and/or meditation? What do you think of them, and how have you been able to use them?
2021-05-26 22:38:38 +0000 UTC View Post
Which pic do you guys like, and why? 🤔 Lolz does anyone else think that "thinking" emote looks funny?
2021-05-26 03:57:44 +0000 UTC View Post
Happy Tushy Tuesday! Idk why, but I'm sort of starting to like to use this space as a sort of journal lolz. It's nice to be able to just speak my mind with no worries, and it's nice when you guys respond with your kind words and insights. I like creating comfortable spaces and forming relationships along the way. It helps us get to know each other better and that's all I ever really want. I like those genuine connections and I am so eager to stream again when I have the chance. Ugh! It's been too long lolz. I'm sure most if not all of you enjoy the content I post here. I'm not really sure how many read through my descriptions now, but I do see the responses and I appreciate them so very much, whether it's as a comment under the post or sent in a message. Even if I don't reply back right away, or sometimes at all lolz, know that I acknowledge them and remember ❤️ I am forever grateful to you beautiful butts and assholes 😄 You know who you are ~
2021-05-26 00:14:53 +0000 UTC View PostWell then! Lolz, the goal is complete! I'll be sending stuffs out to everyone who supported through this goal. If you purchased through the message last Thursday then you should already have the 1 full-length video, 1 short clip, and 3 pics. Thank you to everyone who contributed, supported, and liked this post and the content 😊 *If you'd still like to get the video, you can always get it whenever by messaging me. Reminder that if you miss any PPVs, info for them are all saved in the Archives tab on my profile. Also if you have renew ON, you can message me to get a free PPV of your choice on the day of your renewal.* https://onlyfans.com/148333585/amamizura
2021-05-25 23:00:11 +0000 UTC View Post
Hopefully, I am at 100% tomorrow though. I feel super behind on making content and working on customs and that itself stresses me out which is probably the main reason for my lingering migraine now. I've had so many missed opportunities the past few weekends because I was either in a bad state of mind or just physically ill. And yeah, I should be able to take care of myself first, and you guys are always so nice and patient with me. But it does get to me when I can't be productive. I have this instilled mindset in which if I'm not doing something or working towards something, that I'm somehow failing myself and everyone else. It's something that I guess I grew up with as my parents were always working to survive that I barely got to spend time with them. And I'm like that too now, among other contributing factors. I have that restlessness to keep working, learning, practicing, etc. Heck! The game I was playing last night was Car Mechanic Simulator because I wanted to learn in case I ever have to fix my own car lolz. But I am trying to slow down a bit more and be more willing to let go of things. I guess the question then becomes: What is it that I let go of?
2021-05-25 05:06:54 +0000 UTC View Post
Holy heck! I was pretty damn out of it today. I'm still sorting things out with OF support so I can easily post from my phone, but until then, I'll post on my PC but most likely later as I don't get on my desktop right away. Hence, the late posts. Anyways, I woke up feeling pretty shit again. I think my body caught up to me today as I didn't really get to eat much over the past weekend. I mainly had some fruit and water and a full sandwich over the course of 2-3 days I had the vaccine side effects. So today, I woke up with not too much energy because my body was dehydrated and hungry. Also, it doesn't help that I went to sleep last night at around 4am and woke up at 2pm 😅 I know! Bad Mizu. I was trying to take advantage with feeling better yesterday by playing some games but yeah, I should have rested more and ate better. But hey! I did the best I could do taking care of my own sick butt, and I wanted to celebrate my win of not being super sick anymore! So scold me all you want! Lmao
2021-05-25 03:54:01 +0000 UTC View Post
### **I'm ALIVE!!!** Holy shit! So one of my last posts was about getting the second dose for the vaccine, right? And I said I wasn't feeling anything except for some arm soreness. I figured, "If that's all I get, then great! I'll be able to finally film and shoot what I haven't been able to." The next day, BAM! It hit me! I kept waking up throughout the night, and then I woke up around 9am, when the bf gets up to go to work, and I had a migraine, my body was aching and weak, and I felt pressure on my back and chest. He told me to just stay in bed and drink some water and that he'd bring me some food when he gets home. I go back to sleep, but I still keep waking up. I got up again a few hours later, still feeling shitty. I wanted to at least post something here but as you know, I can't log in on my phone yet and I couldn't stand for more than 10 minutes to type something out on my PC. So I only posted to Snapchat really quick. The day goes by, and I'm verryyyy slowly feeling a bit better, just watching some Netflix to make the time go by faster. I was only able to get up a few times to go to the bathroom, and to get some water and fruit. Later in the day, the symptoms were subsiding and I felt better so I thought the worst was over. NOPE! Saturday I wake up, and tell the bf to get me a bucket just in case because the symptoms came back plus a tummyache. He does and tells me the same as the day before and heads out for work. I go back to sleep, but keep waking up because I'm sweating and I feel hot and then cold and then hot again. I only get up to go to the bathroom and it was not pretty. I didn't officially wake up until around 5pm and I didn't want to get out of bed unless I had to, which happened a few times. Thankfully, the bucket never got used, mainly because I refused to upchuck. I hate the feeling. I literally did fuck all because my head hurt too much to have my glasses on or even look at my phone for too long. It wasn't until around 10pm that I finally got some food and water in me because I finally had the strength to. That, and I had taken an Advil an hour before since most of the symptoms had subsized except for the migraine and tummyache. It helped. I thought today was going to be another day of suffering because when I get sick, my day usually starts off bad and then gets better at night, rinse and repeat until my day starts off good. Well, today I woke up good! I still have a bit of a migraine lingering but that's mainly it. I'm not at 100% and I won't be doing jumping jacks or anything just yet, but I'm feeling a lot better today. Maybe if I'm closer to 100%, I'll try to do some shoots and filming but I'll be taking it easy for the rest of the day, too. I was finally able to stand up long enough to brush my teeth and shower, and it felt amazing. I didn't wake up in cold sweats or anything. That's a win for the day! Anyways, just wanted to update in case anyone was curious lolz. As always, apologies for the long descriptions. Enjoy the nudes! :D
2021-05-23 21:44:07 +0000 UTC View Post## **Standing Cum** *Exclusive Video* I wanted to try a random challenge by limiting myself to vibe and cum *only* standing up. I can't bend my knees or bend my body forward or back too much. I can spread my legs just a bit, but that's mainly it. Watch me make myself cum twice standing up plus some overstimulation. A good video for people who like fuzzy pussy and cum challenges lolz. **Length** - 12:51 **Toy Used** - Purple Tongue vibe **Price** - $5 *Get an additional clip of me licking my juices and extra close-up pussy pics for an extra $3.*
2021-05-21 02:49:47 +0000 UTC View Post
Phew! Another productive day today surprisingly. I got my 2nd dose and don't really feel any different other than some soreness so far. Not that I would feel a difference if I'm tired lolz. Been lazy-ish and tired lately anyway but I guess we'll see how the rest of the day and weekend go. And my new phone arrived! I dropped the old phone at the post office to complete the trade in, and am currently setting up the new phone. It's effing huge! Anyways, if you haven't seen a lot of posts to Story here, it's because I wasn't logged in to my account on my phone the past couple of days due to the factory reset but I did try to post some Snaps lolz. I'll try my best to finish setting everything up today so there can be some Story stuffs :)
2021-05-21 00:14:53 +0000 UTC View PostAs for what I've been doing productively, I won't go into details in case shit happens or I get jinxed lolz. But for stuffs that are happening for sure: - I'm getting my second dose of the vaccine tomorrow - I scheduled my appointments with a driving school for lessons I am nervous as heck about the 2nd dose because I've read and heard about people feeling extreme fatigue and stuffs. But I still want to try to stream this weekend, even if it's only for a couple hours on Saturday or Sunday. I'll send out a proper announcement for that tomorrow. As for driving school, I am also nervous as heck for the lessons. But I really do want to get my license this year and I've been slacking on practicing so hopefully this gives me that push I need to maybe getting my license by my birthday. And then that'll help me with finding a part-time job so I can rely a bit more on that and not stress too much here on OF. Here's to hoping everything goes well 🤞
2021-05-20 03:29:26 +0000 UTC View Post
Ah, I've felt so lazy lately but in a better mood and with some small bursts of productivity. Maybe it's the weather? It has been cloudy lately, not like a dark cloudiness but more like fog in the sky if that makes any sense. Also a bit cool, which makes me want to just cuddle and be warm under a blanket 😊 How about you guys? Does the weather affect your mood and productivity?
2021-05-20 01:47:17 +0000 UTC View PostLolz I forgot to put a caption. Ummm caption these!
2021-05-19 01:11:58 +0000 UTC View Post
Btw Happy Tushy Tuesday ft. some feet! I didn't know which pic to be my 5th for the last post so have all of them lmao.
2021-05-18 22:45:26 +0000 UTC View Post
So um, I was going to try to post something yesterday after going to the park, but then shit happened lolz. Let me explain. I was going to trade in my phone to upgrade to a new one since my provider had a deal going on. I had backed up my Google accounts and cleaned out most of my phone except for the apps I was still using. I was told by the lovely bf to factory reset my phone to make the process of getting a new one faster at the store, so I did. My phone was reset, and we headed to the store at around 4pm. After talking to the peeps and giving them my account info, they asked me what kind of phone I wanted to get in return for my trade-in. I told them, they looked to see if it was in stock in their store, and it wasn't. They said they could order it instead. But I needed the phone today because I just factory reset everything on my old phone. I tell the bf to call stores around the area to see if any of them have the phone I want in stock. **NOBODY FUCKING HAS IT IN STORE!!** The only option is to order it online. We do that, and it takes a couple days to ship plus another couple days to get delivered. That's fine. We get home around maybe 6pm, have some food. I figure, "Eh, it's oki if I don't post today. I haven't taken any pics/clips and I'm tired, so I'll just post tomorrow." I connected my phone back to my Google account in hopes that all the apps would automatically install because that's what the bf told me. I didn't believe him so I wasn't expecting that lmao. I just installed the main apps I use from the library of each Google account I have. I also took screenshots of the apps before the factory reset just in case. I'm going about my business on my PC, doing some research on stuff. Then I remember to log in to my financial apps on my phone. I hadn't been using my desktop for them because I didn't have the means to yet so I wasn't logged in on **any** of them on my PC. So I try to log in to them on my phone. What I didn't realize was that Google Authenticator *isn't* one of those apps that is connected to a Google account, which is what I use for 2FA. I was able to log into most of my apps that just use a text message instead, but not the ones that use the authenticator. The way that one works is you'd have to **import** the codes onto the new phone with the old phone **not** factory reset so it can easily transfer it. There is **no other way** to get the codes. ASDFGHJKL!!!! So now I can't log into some of my apps/accounts on either my phone or PC because I need the code to get in but I can't get the code because there are no codes anymore because I factory reset my phone before getting a new phone. I- ## **AHHHHHH!!!! ASHDUILWAHRFIUHNA** So now I'm just emailing everyone to be able to log into my accounts. Thankfully, I logged into socials on my PC beforehand because they also use the autheticator for 2FA.
2021-05-18 20:27:54 +0000 UTC View PostLittle clip I wanted to make. Do you guys like it better when I say something in these small vids?
2021-05-17 02:22:12 +0000 UTC View Post
You chose the shirt. Now which pic is your fave?
2021-05-17 00:47:42 +0000 UTC View Post
Haven't posted any blurry phone selfies in a while so I wanted to change that lolz. It's Wear Purple Day!!! I left the choice up to you guys in Story, and most of you chose the panda shirt. Idk if you guys know me too well, or if you guys just like pandas too. Super sus 🤔 Lolz but I am wearing the panda purple shirt for the day!
2021-05-16 22:35:59 +0000 UTC View Post
Oh! On another note umm... my green onions died lolz. Idk what I gave too much or too little of, but I figured that would happen as their growth was stunted again. Shit happens. What else? I got my first shot of the vaccine a couple weeks ago. I get the second dose next Thursday. And I got myself some supplies to start baking from scratch 😊 I'm kind of scared to try it now but fuck it. Maybe I'll make some cupcakes tomorrow since I don't have any cake tins lmao. I just have the cupcake/muffin ones. Regardless, I shall practice my techniques with mini cakes! *And to those that subbed recently, I am so sorry lolz. You can stick around if you like, but I am out of sorts so maybe have low expectations for my page. Or you can ask OF for a refund!*
2021-05-15 01:15:18 +0000 UTC View Post
These last couple of weeks have been weird for me. Writing out my thoughts is a nice way to better understand myself, but posting my thoughts... I guess it so *you* guys better understand where I'm coming from. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do and that maybe this isn't it. It's pretty much the same as I left it. And yeah, I blame myself. I didn't promote enough, I didn't cam enough, I just didn't do enough for exposure to get to where I thought I wanted to be. Maybe I just wasn't really cut out for it, or maybe I just wasn't what people wanted. I started out in the industry making custom videos on a weird site I'd never heard of. But for the most part, I had to look for requests that I could fill. I wasn't sought after, not really. I happened to be one of the few people willing to make videos for people who wanted something custom on a request board for cheap because I needed the money, and any amount helped. And then once I started to get people requesting from *me*, I was surprised and researched around the site how much to charge. I realized I should up my worth, but got fewer and fewer takers. Same thing happened with camming. I was hella fucking nervous to start and I was already living with the bf and his family so I had to be quiet, which was a bit of a negative but I tried it anyway. I saw other girls charging like 2222 tokens just to take off their shirt. I tried to make mine a bit more reasonable, not cheap, but still ended up having to lower my goals so that when the real show started, if it did, I could possibly get more people in to watch, which meant I was taking everything off at the same amount other girls were charging just for the shirt. Even then it was a struggle of "Am I going to make enough tonight? Am I even going to get to nakey?" It was a ton of stress that I couldn't handle at the time because I was already trying to study towards something else. I couldn't put my all into camming and content because I didn't have the time or energy or privacy for all the hours of work it takes to remain relevant. Camming was meant to be something temporary to help me through school, and I am thankful to everyone who could and did help me. I left the industry for various reasons, including I could make the same amount a night or more working a vanilla job. That's how bad it got. Don't get me wrong: camming was great and fun because I got to hang out with people and we could do stuff and I could get as creative as I wanted. It just wasn't viable in the long run. I knew it wouldn't last long and people don't really realize how much BTS stuff really happens. It's not just 5 hours camming a day for several days. It's hours and hours of planning on what kind of show would be unique and entertaining for people to want to come in and watch and tip, having to buy lingerie and props and toys for those ideas, trying to come up with games and sales, filming and shooting content that would most likely be sold as a bundle for cheaper, etc. And OF is about the same. I tried to up my value again because I felt like I was offering more than other people on the platform, but I guess that's not what makes people stay? I've posted every day, multiple times a day, with different themes for each day of the week. There's an exclusive tip menu only available to subs, I only get nakey here now, only 1 PPV every week which includes early access to content before they're posted anywhere else and exclusive videos only available through here, and anyone could PM me whenever because I'd be online all day anyway. And yet, the monthly sub is too much for people. So now idk if I should just offer less for a lower subscription, maybe get rid of the free OF because no one's active on there either, or get rid of this one and stay with the free OF. Idk. Anyway, sorry for the super long rant thing lolz. Or sorry to those that read the whole thing anyway. Maybe I should make a TLDR. TLDR: The sex industry sucks! No pun intended.
2021-05-14 23:00:20 +0000 UTC View PostI'm trying to just post and leave then **ONLY** looking at my Notifications tab when I come back later in the day because seeing post stats makes me feel shitty lolz. But then again, I'm starting to head on over to "Do I really even care anymore?" territory. It kind of feels like people *like* the idea of me being back, but don't want to or can't support in any way or as much as I would need to keep this going. I now have more than 50% of lurkers in here and the numbers are dwindling. So if anyone wants or needs me, I'll be job hunting today. *To anyone I owe customs to who I haven't recorded for yet (there's a couple), I'm willing to give you the option to get something else instead since idk when I'll have the time or energy to make your videos. You can PM me here or on Snapchat.*
2021-05-11 21:07:31 +0000 UTC View Post
I'll be trying to stream this weekend. I say try because idk where my head will be by then, but I'll have more info as the weekend gets closer!
2021-05-11 02:43:27 +0000 UTC View Post
Why, hello there! Guess who cleaned up 😏 There's no longer a mess of things and now I can be freely nakey! What do you think? Have you cleaned up today?
2021-05-11 00:41:54 +0000 UTC View Post
So um, my room is messy and I've got to clean it up again. How does it get like this? Well, sometimes I let it pile up lmao. Props and clothes I keep around from shoots to have them at the ready, dirty laundry that I keep telling myself I'll put in the hamper the next day, and a bunch of other stuff lolz. It's disorganized but it's mine and only I know where the items I look for are, even though I'm trying not to look at it. Out of sight, out of mind, right? 😅 Then again, I do like organizing stuff, too, so today is my cleaning day. Now just gotta find the vacuum. It's around the house somewhere.
2021-05-10 22:41:49 +0000 UTC View Post
Hope you guys liked the dress! Or what's left of me showing it off haha. How much fabric is too little to be considered a dress? 🤔
2021-05-10 03:40:45 +0000 UTC View Post
Now for the back! I can make it pretty long but it ends up riding up so I figured, might as well show what it wants lmao.
2021-05-10 02:51:01 +0000 UTC View Post
Just showing off the front of the dress. It's really soft 😊
2021-05-10 01:47:52 +0000 UTC View Post
I wasn't sure what to post today as it is Mother's Day. but then I remembered I never actually posted pic of me wearing the new dress. Appropriate since we're meant to get dressed up to take our moms out for the holiday anyway lolz. As most of you may know, my family is on the other side of the country so I don't really get to celebrate any holidays with them. But I do like to take the day to text, call, or Skype with all of them. I called my mom, my sister, my grandma, and my aunt today so I'm all caught up hehe.
2021-05-10 00:41:21 +0000 UTC View Post
I would have streamed this weekend but I didn't really get a chance to post about it and I also ended up getting ill and a bunch of other reasons. Just trying to get my groove back and be positive again. I'll try to stream next weekend though! I'll put an announcement up on Monday 😊 But I'm interested: What kind of theme would you like me to do?
2021-05-08 23:24:16 +0000 UTC View Post